Wednesday night. One year anniversary of me starting CrossFit. Worst workout of my life. And I finally snapped out of it. I finally understood the repercussions of eating the way that I was. Not just weight game. Not just added anxiety. But just a pathetic inability to move quick, lift heavy, catch my breath, or push myself.
It’s now been three days of no refined sugars,no processed foods, no calorie restrictions. And I feel awesome. I’m still hauling around extra weight, but it’s easier. I’m still anxious about losing the weight and looking better, but it’s easier to deal with. I’m sleeping better. I’m dealing better.
Saturday I went to CrossFit again. I worked on Deadlift, we did box jumps, and the WOD was Annie.
I PR’d on deadlifts. Got my first PR on max height box jumps, and got a good amount of double-unders completed in the last two rounds of Annie.
It was a 180 degree turn from where I was on Wednesday. It was so inspiring, motivating, and just downright awesome to feel that good again.
I don’t know exactly why I quit eating well. I know a lot of different things that played into it, but I just don’t know how it all added up.
But I do know what started me again. And now my goal is to pay much closer attention to how I feel at workouts and how it reflects how I treated my body.
Anyways, on to the workout!
Deadlift 1RM: 199.5 to 203
Max height box jump: 26”
11:58 (singles and du attempts on 20 and 10)
Every one should read this, especially if you calorie count.
The sample meal is what I eat on a day when I’m not thinking about how much I’m eating and when I’m not stressed and overeating to compensate.
This changed my week, and hopefully my life, and fits really well with my new plans to just eat what I want as long as I’m at least 80% in the Paleo realm.
As in, I actually went to the gym, warmed up, lifted weight, and completed the WOD.
However, I can easily say that it was one of my worst workouts ever. And I know why.
Here I am again, at day 1. No refined sugars. No processed foods. But also, no calorie restrictions, no weird stigmas against carbs in any form (like fruit).
Where my body is a testing ground of what works and what doesn’t. Where I put all the ideas about self-respect and self-knowledge together and judge myself based on what my body can accomplish, not what others may or may not be thinking. And that means treating my body much better than I have been.
Because I won’t be able to lift more, pull faster, work harder, or jump higher if I keep treating my body and my life like garbage. It’s not garbage.
…I should probably make it to the gym today…
Didn’t eat the cookie yesterday AND worked out. Talk about a good day.
EMOM 3 Snatches (55#)
Sometimes you need to work on form and heavy weights, and sometimes you need reps and reps and reps and reps. I definitely needed those reps! I had a few really good snatches in there, but I think I need to watch some more videos and get lifters if I really want to make a difference in my snatching.
12 min AMRAP
10 dumbbell push-press (20#)
KB farmer carry (35#)
5 strict pull-ups
Farmer carrys are harder than you think and not in the usual way. Yeah, the weight is heavy, but you aren’t straining to hold it up, you are just using your grip and your tendons and your posture. And good posture makes it easier. But you just can’t walk as fast as you want to!
The dumbbell push-press is a challenge because you have to keep your arms steady. I can push-press 60-ish pounds, but by the end of the WOD, those 20 pounds in each hand were a challenge, even with the push-press. I loved it.
I actually really enjoyed this workout, and considering I almost chickened out, it was nice to have a challenging (in other than just heavy or fast stuff ways) and enjoyable workout.
And in preparation for what is looking to be 3 or 4 big family get together’s this weekend, I will be attempting to workout everyday this week.
Still haven’t eaten the cookie…
It’s been two and a half hours and I still haven’t eaten a cookie.